Thursday, February 25, 2010

Signs and Summaries

It's not that I follow astrology, but it's interesting sometimes to see how it correlates with real life. I am a Cancer, although sometimes I wonder if that's what I really act like. I took an online quiz to determine what my sign "ought" to be, and I was pegged as a Pisces. So, I'll list the description of a male Cancer and a male Pisces... I'll let you be the judge.

A Cancer man will come across as an extremely shy person, who speaks less and minds his own business. He is not one of those who tell everything about themselves in the first meeting itself. Infact, it will take a large number of meetings to get even a little close to him. Cancerian male may seem to a different person every time you meet him. He may be nervous and fickle one moment; extremely confident the second minute and too shy the very next. His frown can easily turn, first, into smile and then, into a laugh.

A Cancerian guy may get sad and melancholic at times and then, you will feel like putting your arms around him and comforting him. Then, suddenly his wistfulness will vanish and he will be sparkling with wit and humor. He is a true romantic and sees fairytale dreams frequently. However, he is as close to reality as anyone can be. Baffled? Don't worry, it will take some time, but you will start understanding your Cancerian man slowly and gradually. The changes in him do not mean a changing personality like the Geminis.

It is just a change of moods and he will soon be his usual self again. The basic characteristics profile will, however, remain the same. Just like a crab, he retreats into a shell when his emotions are hurt. The shell is his haven and he will remain there till he is ready to face the world again. Cancerian men may look harsh and distant at times, but inside they are very gentle, kind and affectionate. Rudeness is not one of their personality traits. It just acts a cover to hide their true, vulnerable feelings.

A Cancer man needs to feel secured of your love every now and then, so don't forget to say 'I Love You' everyday. The same goes for money too, debt makes him uneasy. He is the one who always pays his bills on time and he likes saving more than spending. He is not stingy, but he is also not extravagant. However, a Cancerian male won't sacrifice his taste and style in the name of economy. Economy for him means getting the worth of money he spent. Quality plays the utmost importance as far as he is concerned.

A Cancer guy is very conscious of his looks, his house, his car and everything that surrounds him. His clothes need to have that perfect cut, his car that perfect shine and his food that perfect taste. He is not one of those wild men who like going against the usual norms, and sophistication is something he can't live without. There is another thing a Cancer male cannot live without - talking about his Mommy Dearest! She is most likely to be there in his every second conversation.

In the other extreme, he will be totally detached from her. However, his relationship with his mother will never be casual and moderate. It has to be either of the two extremes and the first one is the most likely. At the same time, he will be the most important person in his mother's life. Make sure you pamper him as much and give him as much attention as his mother. Chivalry is in his nature, unless you give him reasons to be otherwise. A Cancerian guy may take sometime to judge you as his probable soul mate.

However, once he is sure, he will shower you with love, care, admiration and gifts. At the same time, you will be expected to meet his standards, which may be quite high. If he has decided you are the one he wants to live his life with, he will pursue you with fierce determination and make you fall in love with him. Now, we talk about the qualities of a Cancerian guy as a father. He will be totally proud of his son and fiercely protective of his daughter. He will be extremely patient with them. With a Cancerian man, there is one thing you and the kids will never be short of - Love!


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There are basically two types of Pisces men - those who go against the tide and those who go where it takes them. The former types remain on the lookout for the right opportunity, struggle against the world to utilize its full potential and triumph over life. The latter types remain tangled in their dreams, may not notice even when the opportunity knocks at the door and may miss the bright sunlight of success. A Piscean man needs to develop the personality traits of resolute judgment and unwavering actions to realize his ambitions and be a winner.

He also has to bury his old, unrealizable dreams if he wants to move ahead in life. All this doesn't mean that he is weak or feeble. It's just that he lives in his dreams too much and has to will himself to get up and indulge in real action. When he manages to brush off the starry dust from his eyes, he sees the real world and then, goes about doing the business of earning his bread. A Piscean male has a very clever and sharp mind. The moment he starts working towards practical aims, you can be sure that he will win the next 'Achievers Award'.

The only problem comes in making him look beyond those unrealistic dreams. If your fish knows how to swim against the current, you can be sure that you are luckiest girl on this earth. After we have dealt with the practical aspect of the relationship, lets come to the emotional one. This is something you will never have to worry about, with a Pisces guy. A Piscean man will never ever be short on emotions and romance. Infact, he practically breathes them. If the practical aspect of his characteristics profile is fine, you can be sure you have been rewarded with the best guy in the world.

He never holds a bias against any person. You will never find him passing a judgment in context of anyone, unless and until he has experienced the same situation in which that person is now. Even then, he will try to understand that person's reasons, rather than criticize him. Accusations don't go down well with him either. A Pisces man is never ever mean. However, at times, he may say something, which turns out to be quite different from what he intended. He is totally dependable and you can trust him with your darkest secrets.

He is a very good listener and people always come to him to discuss all their major and minor problems. When he is with you, try not to burden him more with your tensions too. Throughout the day, he has been listening to other people's troubles and the way he is, he would have absorbed all those negative energies. Now, when he is with you, he needs to get all of this out of his system and rejuvenate himself. Piscean men have such an empathetic disposition that they need to rest every now and then, to bring back the calmness and steadiness.

If they want to be left alone, they should not be disturbed. Closeness and togetherness is good, but let them have their moments of solitude. Give them the space they desire and the heart will only grow fonder. A Pisces man is very sensitive and can get hurt very easily. He appears to be confident of himself, but on the inside, he is painfully shy. He needs to know that you appreciate him, care for him and love him. He has a very quick temper, but the anger subsides as quickly as it comes.

He will never remain angry for a very long time and will seldom hold a grudge. He has the ability to see right through people's outer layer and that makes it very difficult to fool him. On the other hand, he can fool you if he wants and such situations will arise frequently, since he likes to keep his own affairs to himself. A Piscean man may speak a small lie once in a while. This is because he has some secret fear of revealing all about himself. However, you don't need to worry, as these lies will always be completely harmless and help keep his imagination running.

Jealously is not one of the personality traits of a Pisces male. He trusts you totally, but remember he is also a man and will definitely expect loyalty from you. As far as he is concerned, you will get plenty of reasons to be jealous, as he will have close friends of both the sexes. He will also appreciate beauty, but he will never be disloyal. That's just not him. If you can cope up with this, you will be rewarded with the most romantic husband, with whom you talk about almost everything under the sun.

A Piscean guy is never too cautious about money and you will have to handle that front. Infact, you need to present yourself as the perfect example of a saver and he will, sooner or later, follow suit. He learns quickly from the people he admires and respect, so what better person than you to teach him economy. With children, he will be a lot of fun and extremely loving. He will listen patiently to their childish problems, provide them with solutions, keep their imagination oiled and minds active. However, teaching them discipline will be your responsibility.

Remember that a Pisces man is very fond of his dreams. Never ever step on them or laugh at them - he will be hurt. Infact, believe in them and one day, you may be walking on the red carpet besides him. Trust him, give him love and keep him emotionally nourished. In return, he will shower you with lots of love and affection and provide you with a happy and rich home. Don't nag or criticize him and always support him in realizing his hopes. Nurture his imagination and one day, you will find yourself blessed with some incredibly good luck!

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Frown Lines

The past needs to stay in the past. I don't need anyone bringing their stupid memory-digging-up shovels and unearthing all these negative feelings. Ugh, stupid stupid stupid. Get out of my head. Ok, it's time to take this shovel, bury the past again, and get ready for a great vacation.

Friday, February 5, 2010

Flakes and Flurries

I'm watching a wintry mix of accumulation drizzling and blowing about outside, and it's times like this I remember: I hate winter. I used to hate spring, but now it's winter. Maybe it's because my first winter in Cincinnati was ridiculously cold (the wind chill one morning when I went to work was -15... that's a bit much). Or, because during my first winter here, everyone back home was dealing with the Ice Storm. I capitalize it because it actually was a pretty big deal. People were without electricity for weeks. It freaked me out, and I wasn't even experiencing it firsthand. I was also still employed at the Cabinet, and that was just a big pot of stress soup.

Anyways, I'm ready for spring time. I'm ready for short sleeves, 60 degree sunny days, the return of greenery, and more humidity. The dry air here is ridiculous! I've never had dry skin before, so I'm taking it kind of personally.

Yesterday I forgot to take my Adderall before going to work. The funny (and by funny I mean hilarious) thing was, people could tell without me having to say anything. I was pretty useless at work. I didn't get much accomplished in terms of paperwork until near the end of the day, when my brain finally kicked into gear. Needless to say, when I get my next prescription, I'm going to bring my old bottle into work with a few doses in it so that if I forget my meds again, I'll have an emergency stash. I'm usually able to multi-task even when there's a conversation going on in the office, but yesterday I couldn't even finish typing an e-mail because I was too busy listening to MaryClare and Bree talk about adoption stuff. I'm not complaining about them--it's just interesting to see how I function without my meds.

I have to give myself a pat on the back. The past 3 months I've been working really hard on building muscle. I've done tons of research on exercise routines, nutrition, and overall health. Most of that has been because of the extremely helpful guys at the Mens Health magazine online forums. Without them to set me straight, I'd still be doing pointless exercises that got me nowhere and eating all the wrong things. Over the last year, I have gained 12 pounds--10 pounds of that is muscle. 4 pounds of muscle was gained in the last two months. For my final consult with my trainer, I had him take my measurements. In the past two months, I've added 1 inch to my shoulders, one inch to my chest, one inch to my arms, one inch to my thighs, and 1/4 inch to my calves. I'm so excited! I need to adjust my diet a little bit to reduce the amount of fat I'm storing, then I should be golden.

I'm going on a cruise in a week! I'm stoked! I can't wait to get off the plane and walk onto that gigantic boat! If you are feeling especially generous, you (and some friends, if you want to split the cost!) can buy me some drink tickets. Just click on this link and enter Booking Number 99NZ85 and Stateroom Number 7280. :)

Friday, January 15, 2010

Goals and Gateways

I haven't made an entry in a while. Life has been kind of a whirlwind, what with the holidays and work amping up a little bit. Then again, there have been relatively few big happenings in the Life of Nate lately. That's pretty much fine with me. Finishing up Christmas and New Years was a mixed blessing. Although it was great getting a break from the ordinary and getting to see more of my family and friends, I'm definitely glad to be back into the daily grind.

I decided a few years ago that I don't believe in New Year's Resolutions because they, for the most part, fail. So instead, I've decided to just make a couple goals or themes for myself to follow. This year, I want to pay off my credit card and apply for a new one with a higher credit limit. I've learned some valuable lessons with my first credit card and still have pretty good credit, so it's time to move on to something more adult.

My other big goal is weight gain. I know for years I've struggled with this image of myself being fat, chubby, overweight, or just "oddly proportioned." The problem has been that I've been going about this whole fitness thing entirely wrong. I was afraid of putting on muscle because it was a daunting task that I didn't understand. I also didn't want to look like a meathead... you know, because I'm such an intellectual and all. But if I'm ever going to reach a point where I'll be totally comfortable with my body, I'll have to take a different road. So I've been dedicated 3 days a week to lifting weights. I have a structured program that I've been working on for the past 8 weeks and already I've seen some pretty encouraging increases in my physical strength. I can also eat a lot more! I feel like I have learned SO much about fitness and nutrition in the past couple of months. So the goal for the year is to put on lots and lots of muscle, then go through a period of "cutting" starting around October or November. As I think about it though, that may be a bad time to start, with holidays and all. So it may be January of next year before I start the "cutting" phase.

Either way, this year is about building and growing.

Oh, and I'm applying for grad school this fall to start in fall 2011.

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Bursting and bubbling

Periodically throughout the day, I have this very weird sensation of being nearly overwhelmed by emotion. I'm not sure exactly which emotion--whether it's happiness, sadness, anticipation, worry, the list goes on--but it fills me up and I feel like I'm going to explode with it. Right now, I'm feeling impatient about getting through this workday, going home, wrapping up my last few presents, loading them in the car, eating dinner, going to bed, then going to work tomorrow, wrapping some stuff up, doing a home visit, then hitting the road. Each thing I do I rush through so I can do something else.

I love Christmas and all that comes with it (except the unhealthy food) but all I'm excited about is seeing my family. Then I just want to get back to my normal routine!!

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

thoughts and theories

It's no secret that I have a wide variety of interests. I mean, heck, just look at the list on my facebook profile. Just do it. It's cool, I'll still be here when you get back.


..you back? You didn't actually look. Gah, what are you good for?

Anyways, it's also no big secret that I'm not on-task at work 100% of the time. I have little research projects that I like to do throughout the day. In the past month or so, I've learned so much about personal fitness and nutrition. I know just enough to be dangerous. But it's totally fun, because I've gained 2.5 pounds in the past 3 weeks, and I'm convinced it's muscle. My shoulders look bigger, chest looks wider, I've grown a pair of horns, and now I'm 6'3" tall. Two of those statements are true.

Wikipedia and I have become very closely acquainted. The other day, I got to thinking about something James said to me the other night about my skin looking yellow. Now, I know I don't hae jaundice, and my kidneys are working fine as far as I know, so I did a little research into yellowish skin. As it turns out, I have a skin color known as "olive," which is common to people near the Mediterranean and the southern parts of Germany. When olive-skinned people don't get much sunlight, their skin takes on a dull yellowish color with a greenish cast. Sexy, no? But I compared my skin to some scale by Von Laschlon or something else that sounds like a sneeze and I match the "olive" or "Mediterranean" skin type. I thought it was pretty cool.

Oh, and I did a little research into the origin of my family name. As it turns out, it's either derived from the German name "Futch," it's derived from the old French "vautre," or "hunter," or it's a dirty slang term from French ("foutre") that has to do with the act of lovemaking. I'm hoping it's the second one, because the idea of coming from a clan of hunters that crossed over to England with William the Conquerer is way cooler than thinking I have the namesake of an explitive.

Once again, I have to just say that I'm one of the most blessed people I know! I have so many awesome people and things in my life right now. Woohoo!

Monday, December 14, 2009

sighs and smiles

Feeling much better this week. Not sure why I was so moody last week, but I had a few pleasant surprises that really turned me around. I have the most amazing people in my life. I'm truly the luckiest guy in the world... or pretty darn close.

It's funny sometimes how sometimes, you look into your past, and when you catch a glimpse of it in the crowd of your memories, the guy has grown a beard and you don't recognize him at all.

That's a metaphor, in case you need an assist there.

Although I have in fact grown a beard. But I'm not a metaphor. I'm a man. With a beard. A literal beard.

...this is going nowhere.

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Fidgets and Freaks

Today, I can definitely tell that I'm not at my best. I started having a mini anxiety attack on the way to work this morning. It's just about money.. not that big a deal. I just keep remembering all these expenses I'm going to have. I still have to buy wrapping paper, bows, gift tags, a gift for our gift-exchange at home, money for four nieces and nephews (I forgot til just now that I've already gotten gifts for the other five, thank God), plus supplies to make food for the Christmas party at work and at home. UGH. Money is really tight right now. Most of it is definitely my own fault, being selfish and buying things I didn't need, but wanted. But I guess I'll just have to figure things out.

Also, kind of stressed about work. I know it's the nature of my job, but it's like at least one of my clients has to be in crisis at any given time. I had a nice couple of weeks, but now the proverbial S is hitting the fan.

Ooouuuuugggh.

Monday, December 7, 2009

Feelings and Fears

Let me just put it out there: I hate winter. It's not the snow or the cold, although I could definitely live without the temperature falling below 60. I think it's the light--or rather, the lack thereof--that bothers me. It's cloudy on most days, and by the time I'm off work, the sun is setting or has set. I miss having warm sunshine on my skin. I would love it if Christmas was in the summer. Wasn't Jesus supposedly born in the summer? Let's work on fixing those calendars, okay?

It's usually during the winter and early spring that I start feeling all yucky on the inside. It makes me too introspective. I start having all these negative thoughts and feelings. I start thinking that nothing I do is good enough, that I'm a failure and I'll never amount to anything, my family is going to stop being proud of me, I'll be alone, and I'll never be satisfied with anything in my life. Honestly, if I wasn't on Lexapro right now, I'd probably be a basket case. I definitely was last winter.

I have a lot of good things going on in my life right now. And I have to keep reminding myself of that. Going to the gym makes me feel good and I love my job. I have good people in my life and I need to stop feeling like they're going to abandon me.

In slightly better news, I got my measurements at the gym. Compared them to January. I had some small games and losses in most areas, but I lost 3 inches in my waist and gained 2.5 inches in my shoulders. Pretty happy with that. I'm trying to gain muscle now, so I'm scarfing down calories like it's my job.

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

shortsweet

I just have to say... I love my life right now. I'm really happy. It's been a while since I've felt this good for such a long time. I've had a couple of not-so-good days, but mostly it was just a waking up on the wrong side of the bed thing. Everything in my life rocks. I just can't believe it. I feel so blessed and lucky.

Monday, November 16, 2009

The Smaller Things

Although I spent most of the weekend lounging and doing fun, non-taxing things, I apparently brought work home with me. One of my new cases has been on my mind, because I feel really bad for the foster mom. I feel bad for the kid too, because it's a bad fit between the mom's skills and assets the child's needs. I have all this empathy and compassion for people, and all it does is make me feel yucky when I know they're feeling bad.

So today, having had a pretty good day, I'm trying to focus on small things that give me pleasure. For example, the taste of the celery and cauliflower in my salad, having someone great to talk to on the phone, renting a cheesy horror movie from Redbox, and wearing pajama pants and a sweatshirt. It helps me recharge my tired heart and head.

Saturday, November 7, 2009

This is relevant to my interests

I was reading through my friend James' blog, and he wrote 20 things that interest him. I guess it's sort of a list of things he enjoys/is interested in. So, here's my narcissistic contribution to the interwebz/blogosphere.

1. Going to the gym
2. Mental health research
3. Cultural anthropology
4. Text messaging
5. iPod Touch (it's seriously amazing)
6. Punk/indie/rock music
7. Nutrition science
8. Anagrams
9. ADHD
10. Facebook
11. Wine and beer
12. Asking "why" questions about food, like, "why aren't there more blue foods?"
13. Introspection
14. Pharmaceuticals
15. Cute, furry animals like cats, rabbits, ferrets, and mice
16. Lucid dreaming
17. Robotics and prosthetics
18. Video games
19. Checking my email
20. Trees

And these are a few of my fav-o-rite things.

Space and Time

Well well well. I've had such a busy month, I haven't had time to update this blog. So, I'll just give a quick recap of the last month:

  • I had a very important conversation with my parents that went really well, and really improved the quality of our relationship. It was great.
  • I've had many, many visitors! Rachel, Sheloa and Jamie came up for a weekend and we had a blast doing anything and everything, including eating lasagna at 4 AM and drinking absinthe.
  • Amanda, Adam and Aiden came to visit me and we went to the Renaissance Festival! It was bitter, bitter cold, but it was so much fun. The turkey legs, bread bowls of soup, warm mead and performers were great, as well as window shopping in all the stalls.
  • I went home one weekend and helped my grandma buy a (really cool) computer. I also visited with Denham and Julie, and went to a Halloween party with Amanda, Adam and Aiden. Loads of fun!
  • Denham and Julie came up last weekend for Halloween and we had a ball. We went out and enjoyed what the Cinci Metro Area has to offer, including going to a Halloween party at Andy's, eating at Claddaugh's, and going to the USS Nightmare. Oh, and Julie got to meet Beyonce. Not the real one, but pretty darn close.
  • I have been at my job for 8 months now. I got my 6-month review, and got Satisfactory or above in all categories. Yippee! I also got an award a LEADER award for enthusiasm, which included a gift card. :) I really love my job. Even though I'm having to pay lots of money for breaking my contract to the state of Kentucky, it's all worth it to work for such an amazing organization with such awesome people.
  • I bought Dragon Age for the 360 and I'm super excited about it. It's awesome!
  • I've continued with my exercise routine, although I've kind of trailed off a bit. But my body fat % has not exceeded 10%, so I'm happy with that!
That's really all. I was supposed to be going to an adoption fair today to advertise for Holly Hill, but the event was cancelled... so here I am on the couch, playing Dragon Age. My life pretty much rocks. :D

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Enlightened and Empowered

So, life after a diagnosis and prescription has been interesting. I'm learning so much about ADHD and how it affects literally every aspect of a person's life. It's not just attention or spazziness... there are so many layers and variances and nuances in this disorder. I'm reading "You Mean I'm Not Lazy, Stupid or Crazy?" and it answers so many questions I didn't even know I had. I even have my own fun little label: an ADDult. :D

Taking the Adderall has helped. I feel more focused and motivated and clear-headed. Less static and chatter inside my head. The side effects aren't bad at all, either. It's disrupted my sleep cycle a little bit, but I'm getting the hang of it. The first day was a little rough. I got a headache, but at the same time I felt more in control of my own mind than I ever have. Now that my body is adjusting to the medication, I'm thinking I might need a slightly higher dose (I'm on one of the lowest prescribed doses) but for now everything's easy-peasy. I even cleaned up my desk a little. My supervisor said she was impressed.

Speaking of, I got my work evaluation today. It was mostly Meets Expectations, with a few Exceeds Expectations and one Outstanding. Boss lady says in my next evaluation, I'll have a lot more "Exceeds". I told her that was my goal.

Overall, I'm loving my job. I feel so blessed to have stumbled into such an amazing opportunity with such kind, smart, dedicated and fun people to work with. It's stressful at times, but I definitely don't go home worrying about my job anymore. I don't even mind the overtime.. mostly because I can flex my schedule, which is such a sweet deal. Granted, I'm making a little less than what I hoped, but money isn't even half of everything.

My life is headed in great directions right now. I've reached a new, positive point in my relationship with my parents that I have only, up to this point, dreamed about and hoped for. I'm starting to make roots here in NKY/Cincinnati... and although I miss my friends who are far away, there's a saying written on a piece of card stock in a picture frame mounted in my bedroom: "The road to a friend's house is never long."

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Signed and Stamped

So, had my second appointment with Dr. Heck today.

As it turns out, I have a mild case of ADHD. As if I didn't know that... but it's nice to have it on paper. So, I bought a book about adult ADHD today and I plan to read it soon.

...I also bought Volumes 2-4 of the Buffy Season 8 comics. I'm a total nerdball and I love it.

Monday, September 14, 2009

Followup and Followthrough

So I went to my appointment with Dr. Heck. We went through a battery of tests... at the end, he says,

"Well, I don't really know what to do with you. The thing is, you're so bright. You do have some signs of ADHD, but these tests aren't really measuring you the way they're supposed to."

Great, so I'm too smart. But he gave me a take-home test and I have another appointment on the 22nd.

I had a fantastic time this weekend. If only I could put it on repeat.

And! Despite the fact I haven't been to the gym in a couple weeks, when I went back today, I measured my body fat percentage again. I'm ringing in at 7.1%! Woohoo!

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Stimulate and Substantiate

Tomorrow is my first appointment with Dr. Heck. I'm going to be assessed for ADHD.

Everyone assumes that I don't have it. I've been successful so far, haven't I?

I think if anyone spent any time inside my head, they'd run away screaming. It's like 25 TV's are turned on inside my head, all at the same time, all on different channels.

My thoughts bounce all over the place like a rubber ball in a tiny box being shaken by an angry child.

My desk is a mess. I have no organizational skills. I forget appointments. I'm constantly running late. I procrastinate with everything.

I always made it through school one way or another.. understanding and lenient teachers and otherwise excellent work helped my grades stay up. But my resources and ability to compensate aren't matching up to the demands of my job and my life anymore.

I just wish I could get someone to understand what it's like inside my brain.

I guess that's why I'm going to see Dr. Heck tomorrow. Maybe it's ADHD that has been at the root of all my low self-esteem and depression all along.

Monday, August 31, 2009

habits and hobbies

I go to the gym pretty frequently. 3, 4, 5 times a week. When I go to the gym, there are several people who look familiar to me because I've seen them there several times. There are a few people whose names I even know. Then, there are a few people who I remember because.. well.. they're just unique. There's Old Commando, who doesn't wear underwear (shudder), there's the gay Hispanic man who has a red and black mohawk and stretches in the sauna in his teeny-tiny underwear, there's the very athletic guy with the robotic leg, the guy who looks like Paulie Bleeker from Juno... it goes on and on.

Then, I start to think--am I one of those "unique" people that gets remembered for his strangeness? I am pretty strange. I go to the gym wearing t-shirts from bands that probably no one there has heard of (I'm such a hipster). But I think my real sticking point is my behavior on the elliptical machine. See, I hate cardio exercise in its various forms. I hate running. I hate biking. I hate swimming. But put me on the elliptical and I'll burn 700 calories before you can bake a casserole containing that many. I have some pretty bizarre behaviors on the elliptical though. I spend about 80% of the time on there with my eyes closed. I lip-sync all the music that plays on my iPod. And I don't mean I just kind of murmur the words... I really belt it out on mute. I put on a serious concert performance on an Ashlee Simpson scale of lip-syncing awesomeness. I also kind of... snarl at my reflection in the TV that's part of the elliptical machine. I grin and snarl and leer at myself. It's really kind of freaky. I look kind of like a singing werewolf.

And that's the image I'll leave you with: a werewolf singing along with Panic at the Disco.

Sunday, August 30, 2009

it's February in my brain.

I wish I had words to describe the feeling in my body and mind. It just feels like.. "smoo." Not a delicious treat from The Big Apple, but just a pathetic, blah, yucky word. Smoo.

Beyond that.. I went home last weekend and saw Adam, Amanda and Aiden, aka Iron Man. It was great to meet Aiden, especially since he was being a little snot and kept changing his mind about when he was being born. I got to see Denham and Julie as well, and Jamie and Jeff too. It was a nice weekend.

Work is kinda stressful right now. Getting new clients always wears me out, especially during school, because the school systems are very uncooperative about transferring records and admitting my clients as students. I want to punch the schools in their throats.

Okay, I came up with a word. "Poopy."

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Hearts of Hoodlums

Work has been tiresome lately. I'm trying to get two kids enrolled at school--two kids who actually want to go to school--but the school systems are being completely ridiculous. Completely annoying. Ugh.

I'm making banana ice cream for my boss MaryClare. Her birthday is Saturday and she requested it. She's an awesome boss. If she had asked for something I had no idea how to make, I would have figured it out. I love having a great boss and a great coworker on my team. :) They're both amazing.

Oh! And two of my best friends in the world are welcoming their long-awaited child into the world tomorrow! I can't wait to see them!