Salty.Sweet.Sour

Today I am feeling bitter!
But I just spent way too much money, so that helps a little bit. A little shop therapy.
It's sad when the thing I'm looking forward to most in the next few days is work.

Shimmies and Shakes

My life is definitely interesting. It has taken some intriguing twists and turns as of late.

I am so so so ready for my Florida vacation. I leave on the 26th for West Palm Beach, and I return on the 3rd (I think). Although if I had my way about it, I would return on May 3rd of 2020, or so. There is so much fun and relaxation to be had. I'm no longer at a point in my life where I feel I "need" a vacation, but I want it.

So, I had an amazing weekend at home. I got to see my family, which is always nice. Mom and I ate a pint of Graeter's Caramel ice cream by ourselves on Friday night. Then I spent all day Saturday with Adam and Amanda and had so much fun! It was so great seeing them. The drive-in cheeseburgers were a huge added bonus. I will have to have at least another one before the summer is over (hopefully with a movie included!). And we watched SNL. The guest star was Zac Efron. He actually was not bad at all. I'm pretty critical of these up-and-rising teen stars, but I approve of him. Sunday, we had Easter lunch at Mom and Dad's. The food was phenomenal, and I ate my first-ever deviled egg. I have to say, it was decent. Way better than I expected. Then I hid Easter eggs for the kids. It was so much fun watching them hunt for them! I love my nieces and nephews to death.

That's really all I have to say! Life is good. Still loving the job. Going in late tomorrow morning because I worked nearly 12 hours today.

Queries and Quandaries

Sometimes I wonder if I would be happier if everything went back to the way it was.
NKY is fun because nobody knows me here.
But it's also sad because I don't really know myself, either.

Vibrations and Vortexes

I just got home from a training at Cincinnati Children's Hospital about disruptive behaviors in teenagers. We discussed ADHD, Oppositional Defiant Disorder and Conduct Disorder. It was extremely enlightening and educational. The part I found most useful was the ADHD section. Mostly because sometimes, I think I might have ADHD. One woman said this: "My son has ADHD. One day he told me, 'Mom, I wish I could put you inside my head for one day. My head is like a merry-go-round. When I'm on my medicine, everything is still and I can focus. But when I'm not, everything's spinning around too fast.'" That really spoke to me, because that's how I feel almost all the time. I feel like my brain is revved up too fast. I can't focus on what people are saying because I'm always rushing to the end of their sentence so I can finish it in my head. Sometimes I finish it out loud, which is so so rude. I can't talk half the time because my words get all jumbled up in my head and I can't get them out in an order that makes sense--so I don't say them at all. At work, I'm sitting at my desk, begging for a reason to get up and move. I bounce my leg all day, cross and re-cross my legs, tap my fingers, tap my ink pens, tap tap tap tap tap. I'm so forgetful. I've forgotten to bring things to my foster parents that I promised them. Twice. My paper files? Completely disorganized. That's why I like the computer--so much easier to organize things. Plus, I can do three or four things on the computer at the same time. I can check and respond to my emails, type up progress notes, re-organize my client files and play Solitaire or TextTwist at the same time. I've been able to cope with it, apparently--I mean, I graduated with a 3.35, which isn't stellar but it's not shabby, either.

I'm probably over-reacting, but I have been thinking about it for a while. It couldn't hurt to get screened for ADHD sometime. And even if I did have it, what would I do? Would I get medication? Maybe. Just to see what it's like when the merry-go-round stops.